Saturday, July 21, 2012

2 Months

Dear Jamison,

It's been about 9 weeks since your birthday, and I've been thinking long and hard about how I could even begin to put into words how much joy you've brought into our lives in such a short time. Your birth was challenging, and I'm sure one day when you're older I will use that in a teasing way to give you a hard time...but I would go through it all again and again, a million times over, for you.

From the moment I heard your cries my life was changed.  I feel like the person I was before, and the person I am now are different.  All I can say is: YOU ARE TRULY AMAZING. You are the most perfect little person, and I know you are going to do something very special and wonderful in this world. You put out this calming, beautiful energy, and your Dad and I can't help but fall a little more in love with you every day. You do the sweetest things- small cooing noises as you fall asleep, tiny smiles once you are asleep, and you even laugh out loud in the middle of dreaming. You're beautiful my darling boy.  In fact your Daddy calls you, "The Cutness".

Your Dad is amazing and loves taking care of you. He talks about your long legs and big hands and daydreams about you playing basketball and doing all sorts of father-son things together. We both just sit and stare at your gorgeous little features and expressive face. It's hard to think about you growing up already- but as fast as these past two months have gone, I know the rest of our lives will move along just as quickly.  I want to slow everything down and never forget the way you snuggle my neck when you're sleepy, or the way you grip your Daddy's hand with your tiny fingers.

I want to always remember the noises you make, the smell of your hair, and the way you purse your lips after we kiss you. The moments will come, and although that is so exciting, the moments we've left behind will never be lived again. So that's why when I'm tired, and going on two hours of sleep, I take a moment and just love love love little you;  I love you in all of your innocent beauty. This time in our lives will only happen once, and I promise you I will never look too far into the future and miss what's happening right now.  All we can do is be present.  And let me tell you, my sweet little mister, the present is a pretty amazing place to be, thanks to you.
I love you forever,

Mama

Wednesday, July 18, 2012

lights out

baby boy played hard this afternoon
i swaddled him up and he konked right out